Visual Insanity

Me as myself is 'deteriorating' fast..I need my friends...I just need to have ME back. I need that booster to continue...I need to be surrounded by intellectual, optimistic, jovial, happy go lucky, a whole bunch of happy hip and trendy people..in another words...my FRIENDS!!!!

I'm losing my grip..I'm losing my identity and its going off fast.

All I can say is that 'the aura is not good' and even worse when u have morons as your opposite neighbours. And that people..are the ROOT of my problems.

Think about this, isn't it 'bad energy' when you are confine to these walls, no one to chat with and the only activity that so called 'lightens you up' is to see the neighbour making a fool of themselves by copying us. You know, when you are in one with the surrounding, u tends to notice every single details of everything that's happening and trust me, it will upset you more. The visual is so damn sick that at times it feels so confrontational.

That's the ultimate reason I need to have my buddies back, so that I won't succumb to all these bull shits...so that I have my life back..so that I will lead a happy life not bothered by these morons who will go to all lengths to scan the latest from me and my family.

I need to not be bothered by these idiotic people. Its already suffocating me.

I have enough of all these negative energy that I need to release. Anger, boredom, irritating moods, fed-up and all the extras.

I need to keep my sanity.

I need to be with those people who have their own individuality and style, highly intellectual and uppermost beautiful in their own ways. I miss my friends. I really do. I wanna be able to chit chat, have fun and laugh our hearts out.

I need them so as not to be a miserable, moody cow.

God Please help me get out of this insanity!!