why...o...why??

been pretty alright for the past few days and then...wham!bam!...that creature steps in and im back feeling irritated, agitated and all the negative vibes began filling up my entire body..its just that feeling you can't brush away..no brainer is back and again without fail, showing that the brain is not in used...some people just got the talent!

Other half showed me an interesting article..'maid affair'...doesn't come as a surprise...knew that 'this things' happen..what can we say...everybody is an opportunist..we see things that we can take an advantage of..why not?? especially when a person comes from a poor country, see a light at the end of the tunnel which is easily accessible...why not?? male hormones raging, wife not around, maid in the house alone..what the heck...why not??

EVERYBODY is an opportunist brought together into a unique circumstance so as to come out from it a lesson to be learned...

real test in life is when difficulties sets in

imagine that you are in his shoes:

stroke, paralysed, wheelchair bound, not able to talk and say things that you want,

can't express what your needs, you require your other half to bathe, feed and dress you..

you are in a world where you feel that death would be a better solution..but you are still alive, breathing and helpless...

would you do those nasty horrid things you did to him??

it stressed you out to have to deal with this..this is not what you wanted..

well, put it this way, God bring this to you for a reason...!

dark clouds

woke up cos' i had a weird..weird dream..wouldn't want that to happen..either i brush it off or take it as a cautionary guidelines of what's coming thru'..my sixth sense must be telling me something i didn't know..feel like confronting people but no energy...been feeling 'under the clouds' for more than a week now..not my norm..me always a cheery soul... optimistic, bursting with energy and suddenly every single positive note in my body been sapped out...what happen?? still finding the answer...

i know i got a few horrible 'F...ing a..h.l.s' that i just wish i could 'erase' off.. when will the sun shine in me again?..me feeling sad and bored and tired and all rolled into one...

but then again...its the start of the day..got to get rid of that negativity..oh my...not today cos' i'll definitely bump into that 'f' bitch..there goes my day in the clouds again...

If Only....

H..i so much wanted to say it right smack on your face to 'F' OFF..you NO BRAINER!

i can't 'act' that i'm with you anymore..

it drained the energy in me to put on a 'show' each and every time you are around and it goes to a point that i wish i don't have to hear you, see you, face you, talk to you, have lunch or dinner with you...absolutely nothing associated with you!!

Me Getting 'F' Tired of You!!

If only you get to know the truth...!

what if...why not...

*sigh*...woke up this morning..feeling bored and tired to the bone..thoughts filled with 'why' and 'what if'...suddenly do not know what's my purpose in life...why do we have so much to worry about?? why are we constantly put to the test??

Sad...in not knowing if there is tomorrow...Scared..in not knowing what the days hold..Suffocated...with all the needs in life...Tired...in trying to meet these needs...Life goes on though...Just got to be tough, strong and wise....