real test in life is when difficulties sets in

imagine that you are in his shoes:

stroke, paralysed, wheelchair bound, not able to talk and say things that you want,

can't express what your needs, you require your other half to bathe, feed and dress you..

you are in a world where you feel that death would be a better solution..but you are still alive, breathing and helpless...

would you do those nasty horrid things you did to him??

it stressed you out to have to deal with this..this is not what you wanted..

well, put it this way, God bring this to you for a reason...!